I get to work and open my bag. There it is staring me in the face. Oh Great! Feelings of guilt overwhelm me. Realizing, again, that I'm not the perfect parent.
How do I apologize?
Rewind.
We were anticipating this BIG test for weeks now. I'd been helping her study every night for this thing. We'd study while making supper, driving in the car, grocrey shoping, everywhere. Finally it was the night before the test and we were going to sit down for one last review.
"Uh, Mommy, I can't find the paper."
What do you mean, where did you have it last?
I thought I put it in my backpack this morning and it's not there.
Well, your test is tomorrow. I started feeling tense. Now what are we going to do?
I don't know. Since we've been studying, I feel ready.
Well, we have to review tonight, DEAR. I just wish you would put your things away where they go so you would be more ready when it's time to study. You should have been looking for it before now. Go check the car.
I did already, it's not there either. Trying to hold back tears.
Well. What are you doing? Go look for it in your room.
GRR. I felt so upset. I didn't even think how easy it would to look up most of the information up online, or she could just call a classmate to get the information. I just got mad. I yelled. She went to her room to look for the paper crying. I took a deep breath, and immediately went up to her room to appoligze. I appoligized for yelling. But I made sure to make my point clear about being organized, and not waiting till the mast minute to find something. Then we went back to look it up on the internet. Found it right away. Easy. We studied.
Which brings me back to the beginning of my story. I get to work and open my bag. There it is staring me in the face.